what if i do feel something when i sleep? should i just wait for it? what happened to me? i need to fix it and i don't know how and now i'm just remembering how you never told me anything and how i thought i wanted you what a fool i was
that leads me on to point two the one where i meet him the one where i thought that i love him and i wanted him so bad until i got him then i didn't and i don't know how that happened
then we just keep running the track of guilt keep thinking of all of the times that i just leave my messages because god forbid i look at them what if i get into an actual conversation? what do i do then? and around and around i go chasing my own guilty tail because i had time on my hands to think about all the ways i've failed you
i hope you read this and smile sweet confirmation i always needed that i was never ******* enough for you