Even after the earthquakes,
I still try and understand why you shook me
Aftershocks of confusion and pain
Tsunamis flood my thinking cavity
A mass collection of redefined statements

Try to sympathize with your actions
I fail to fully comprehend
Why it began if it had to end
What point did it serve
If you swerve me like an uneven street curb
Speed off to avoid the consequences,
Of immature actions

Undeserved second chances,
Uninviting school dances
Jealous glances throughout endless occasions
Childish actions to get you back
Half hearts breaking deeper apart

My mouth cotton dry that November night
Hardest pill to cough up,
Regurgitated on the verge of tears
Rejection was my biggest fear,
It went through one ear and out the other

Maybe you didn't know
Maybe it wasn't intentional
Wasn't aware of your toxic potential
Awarding you your heartbreak credentials
You’re a professional

It's hard to sympathize when you saw my eyes
Hard to sympathize when you’re great at goodbyes
Hard to come to terms with a past failed spark
That does nothing more now than leave a hole in my heart
past afflictions that make my mind addictive

dramatic fantasies of you & I
my favorite film to watch
as the aftershocks take off.