I’m having trouble thinking
My heart won't quiet down
This pounding in my chest -
Such disorienting sounds
Was a simpleminded heartache
Far too much to ask?
I’m searching for an answer
But still I can't look back
Emotions war within me
Each fighting to the top
Concerns for his health
Blurring my own thoughts
Then there’s my self esteem
This pattern I’ve not broken
It seems that I’m not much
Just a body and a trojan
I know that I can’t dwell
On anything they think
My opinion is what matters
But it’s getting harder not to sink
Creating needed boundaries
Is the next important step
It’s harder than I thought
But I'm doing my best