I lay in my bed and ponder
My mind starting to wander
Looking up at the ceiling
Trying to understand everything I’m feeling
All my thoughts cloud together
The dark thoughts making me feel I will never get better
I feel the tears trickle down my cheeks
But I haven’t felt as I used to in weeks
Everything changed so suddenly
I try to hide my emotions subtly
Weakened by all the intrusive thoughts
Trying to convince myself they are false
I cry in bed every night
Putting up an emotional fight
Sometimes I lose and fall
My world becoming all so small
Eventually, I find some peace
Drifting off to sleep, the thoughts decrease
But the process just repeats
The next night I am once again lost amongst the sheets
I do not know if I will ever be the same again
As the innocent child, I was then