Probably Not

I loved that he was remote. I loved that I couldn’t have him. I loved that I didn’t want him. I loved that he was closed so tight. I loved that he made me feel insecure. I loved that he made me feel less. I loved that I added complexity to his life. I loved that I amused him. I loved that he worked so hard to keep me when I threatened to end it. I loved that he controlled me, and he knew it. I loved that he was committed to being faithful, but he was unfaithful with me. I loved that I changed him, for better and for worse. I loved that he turned me into someone I never would have been. I loved that I was dangerous, and he underestimated how much. I loved what I gave, and I loved what he took. I loved everything I did to him and everything he did to me. I love that I hurt him, and I love that he deserved it. I loved him. Maybe he loved me. Probably not.

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57 / Cisgender Female / Centralia, Washington

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