i’ve loved you

for all this time

we’ve spent months, years together

i’ve tried to remain ignorant

i know i’m not good enough, not smart nor hard working enough

but i’ve tried my best to be the best so that we could hopefully last forever

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but one night

as we talked about marriage

i was excited and went on about how we could get an apartment

about all the boring things like finances

but then you said

“my parents expect you to get a degree, to go to university”

a shattered reality

if its too difficult, if its just easier

just find someone that’s better

someone who isn’t me