"I no longer want to be good"
"I'd rather be bad "
It's easier
I may even be better thought of ?
There's less pressure  ! im picking myself up from the floor
It's been lonely down there
My qualities of kindness have been wrongly interpreted as weak
My giving has  now turned to taking
I swallow the bitter pill of selfishness
Hoping it works

I'm going against the grain now
Is there another option?
I think not
I will wear a cloak of hostility

"You will all regret this"
The tide has turned .......