Well, would you?
                                                                ­                                              

                                                               ­   kiss me back,
                                                           ­                                         hold me for dear life,

                                                     cause I feel like am
                  the  only one,
                                                   fighting to
get back to happier times...



Times when
I had enjoyment
                              of
                                    the
company of
               people,
  

where smiles
                                             and
                           laughter
were true fondness of
fjaka...


Once again alive in my skin,
full of all hope and wisdom.
all were halcyon and humble
again.
stuck upon those lovestruck eyes  

numbing my pain
                          away,

                               ­               intensity
of you seeing
t
   h
       o
           u
               g
                    h

my nacked s I c k n e s s
                    was
                            n
                   o
           t
    h
i
   n
      g

but ALARMING.

m a y be   somewhere
               a
           l
    o
n
   g
the lines
  

I was nothing but  f  a  c  a  de
b
       y

m
          y

own   O  N  E  I  R  A  T  A  X  I  A


o
       h

for I hoped
              that
                     you
                         could
somehow
                   play
the
        part.

but
           the
                     r
            e
    a
l
i
    t
        y
was
      very
              much
s
t
r
a
i
g
h
t
f
o
r
w
a
r
d
                     I had
failed you
  

truth is i
                        never
  wanted
                 to
hurt
              you,
never
           my
intention,


                                                I­ never wanted
to
                        see  you cry
  

I never want
                            to
  push you
                          far
to
                         the
e
        d
                g
                    e.


                                                              ­             all I wanted was too
hug you
kiss you
love you for real,

                                                          ­    but I was
too dull
too tense
t
o
o
                quiet  
                              to
promise with all
my heart to you.

I was
                          infatuated
by
        your
presence,

                                      for I didn't

self-complacent
                                            in front
of my own mirror...

please understand
                                                      ­  it
                                      w
                        ­     a
                    s
never you but an all me
s
      o
           r
               r
                 y
  
for falling allowing you to fall off the edge of my world.
maybe it a
                                 m
                                e
                             ­   s
                                s
                          ­     a
                               g
                               e
      or
                             s
                            o
                          m
     ­                 e
                   t
                 h
               i
          n
      g

that two
                            broken paramours
c
    a
       n
           t
                                       make
a
                   good
story
                       for
our
              children.






then your ghost appears...
heard you familiar
voice
ringing bells
in my ears.
    
hearing and seeing
the dead was the
insane
job.

oh but
no
you
were
smiling with
all your
glory...
D  E  L I C A  T  E
F  E  A  T  U  R  E  S


but that day you were way more
beautiful form afar
distance.

where I could no longer
do damage.

if birthday wishes were relive
I would indeed
relive it
all
again,

but no, am just simply
lingering around the
darkness for you
shadow to reappear
"why wait," you ask

no comment,
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