No shut up I don't need to do more 52 was enough now leave me alone no no no go away go away I don't want to listen to you 52 is enough no I don't need to do anymore it's ok I can't cope I can't do this just take my life away freaking out freaking out probably scaring my friend I'm sorry J if you hate me now. I tried my best I promise I promise I didn't mean to I'm sorry I'm sorry. No no no it's going through the bandage what do I do what do I do if my parents find out of anyone finds out in be in the **** but this hurts like he'll and I've got PE tomorrow. No please not more blood I don't need to do it again but it feels good the physical paincis easier to explain even to myself than what's in my brain I'm making no sense there's no structure of ryhme this is ******* I know but I just need to write my thoughts that are going ten miles an hours can someone help me i m going insane. Their deep and bleeding and hard to hide I don't want help I can do it by myself it just hurts and I hate hurting myself but it feels good and I like it and the stinging is freeing you won't understand this unless you been through it...