i've developed
a predicament
not a traditional one
like the sun being beautiful
but not wanting a tan

my heart
is consuming
my mind
with its petty
wants
and wishes

telling it
to put
life
on hold
for its simple desires
too risky to try
too terrifying to not

but how
can i not give in
when it is all me
even if
i know
it is truly
never
me