This is the first time it's ever been this bad
It's happened before but it was ignored
This is the first time I truly want to leave
Because I'm not the person I'd like to be
Nobody needs me , they'd all move on
They've already given up on me once or twice before
I'm a toxic friend but it's not in purpose
I'm sharp and nasty but I'm always sorry
I don't deserve anything as good as I get
I deserve worse so I give it to myself
Why do people think I'm great I'm really just a waste of space
I cost the money that we don't have
If i was gone you'd get your life back
I'll fail my exams and get minimum pay
What kind of life is that day by day
The afterlife seems a bit far fetched
But at least I'd finally get some rest
No more thoughts in and out my head
24/7 just let me be dead