I keep Recalling my former self, The rosacea stricken Shy-boy California slow-brain That fell in love daily Far longer
Than he'd been alive.
I keep Seeing him, Walking underneath Those ancient Redwoods With a CD-player Jammed into his cargo shorts, Listening to the Pulp Fiction soundtrack, All the way to high school, Not ever thinking he could simply Ride their bike.
Time then was to be Ignorantly Reveled in.
Majesty was innocent And tangible like cool soft-serve Or the nylon of School-issued gym shorts.
Awe, for some, was commonplace.
I keep Trying to reach His freedom; The way he would feel Without hesitation; An open wound for the world to kiss And to sprinkle its salt.
There is an art To vulnerability. It's precious and stupid and carefree and Dangerous.