I am nowhere,
And I've been working for years to get here.
Something inside me is broken.
Pulling, and pushing; it's pain I cannot bear.
I am chilled,
But not from the cold air.
Some part of me can't help but pick,
At these silent scars I wear.
Everything good is muffled,
I feel guilty in your eyes.
And I am so ******* scared,
That I may never truly rise.

And you deserve so much more than this.