I'm scared because sometimes I think I fake my mental illness.
2. I'm scared that I will always be alone.
3. I'm scared because I think I'm a narcissist.
4. I'm scared that I'm a terrible person because when I look at my
           dad all I feel is hatred and disappointment.
5. I don't believe or care enough to believe that my dad is an acholic
           and drug addict because it is easier for me to believe that he
           just didn't want my family or me. it's easier for me to believe
           that he just got stuck with us it's easier to blame him.  
6. I think I'm just as crazy as my mother.
7. I thrive and rely on superior validation, and I'm scared of that
           because I don't want to be stuck in an abusive
           relationship. However, I crave the toxicity that an abusive
           relationship can bring me.
8. I don't want to fix my relationship with my father because if I fix
           it and truly forgive him, then I won't be able to blame him.
9. I know that the reason people aren't here for me is my fault.
10. I oftentimes feel like I'll never be able to trust myself.