i’m so lost and
confused
tired of my tears
and my screams
leaving me silent
my hoarse voice
and tear stained cheeks
mean nothing to you
there is no remorse
or guilt
in the way you treat me
i’m sorry
you say
but those words are hollow
and hold
no meaning to me
they are locked in a box
deep inside my mind
is this what love is
you have broken me
and now i don’t know
who i can trust
i’m afraid i am no longer
loveable
my body and mind
are in too many pieces
for someone to try and put me back together
but that word
try
is another word i have locked away
because you have taught me
that to try
is to fail
and to speak
is to disappoint
but as you taught me
you beat me down
so now
after you
there is nothing left of me
for someone else to love
and how do i explain
why i have nothing left
and that the scars covering every inch of me
are from you
how do i explain
why i think this is love