I want out of this house
With all of these sounds
I want to be me
Without being yelled at
Or crying because hes my replacement
I remember the first time i heard about him
I cried
Because im the oldest
I may seem to have everything
But when you say i can talk to you abou
Anything
Y9ou turn me away
Tell me its all in my head
I just started feeling good about myself
And you wanna tear me down
Im sorry i was the mistake
The one you never wanted
Im sorry that i dont mean much
but I havent tried
not for a while
"why wear the same outfit every ******* day"
Because we **** go anywhere
Im damaged
Its not ALL in my head
I get it
I am the disappointment
You dont have to remind me that im worthless
That whenever i need you
you pretend like you havent
done
anything
yes i resent him
because he means more than i do
because hes younger
IM NOT YOU
I dont care who you want me to be
im almost 17
I HAVE a life
YOU think im nothing
To some people
Im more than they can handle
Ive been locked up here
Because you dont wanna deal with me
I dont care
Ive gotta start writing more....

Pretending isnt good anymore