Before i thought change was coming

but now i’m not so sure

this pain i feel in my neck

the physical part of depression

in dreams i feel

that’s the only place it happens

i wake up drained

go to sleep pained

it will never end

how far can i bend

maybe i’m already broken

a token

of gratitude

or appreciation

i do not care which

if only i could get one

from that *****

that ******* *****

she’s done me right

and oh so wrong

my mind will always be strong

i don’t know what that means

but it’s the only truth i know

i consistently try

to eschew inconsistencies

someone else i need help please

i feel these dreams are premonitions

i do not know their true definition

it feels dreadful

i just….

don’t know