You made a comment, You let your drunken tongue slip, And out came words like a drunken man’s fist. To my gut they went first, To the place in my body That holds all the pain. To a place I conditioned my “mindless”, “privileged” mind to hate. I digest them easily, Familiar still the taste of words about excess, the body and the mind do not forget. I’m used to too much. These words are internalized, they become a part of my system- I feel the universe shifting within. These words are a black hole, an off switch, a portal to my darkness- a place from which I am afraid to speak, a place where my mind is not crystalline, but jagged and shattered. I speak with intentions to cut you open, forgetting the words will rip my throat on the way up. And I can feel tears down the back of my throat, Salting the wounds we’ve just invoked. I don’t want to taste this, I promised to myself Too many times I wouldn’t swallow anything that wasn’t intended to help me heal.