Jan 2021
For the first time since it started I felt at peace
My birthday came and went, I'll be honest I saw it coming
Yet for a moment it was silent, no sadness or pain
Just acceptance
Sadly that moment came and went
It stung even though I saw it coming from miles away
I still miss you and would accept you in an instant
You always call me loyal
Seems I am loyal to a fault when it comes to you
I'll always be here for you, no matter how much you move on
I'd catch you in every fall if you'd let me
You probably want to forget all about you, do you despise me?
I made a promise to you, I'd care for you for life
I will not break that promise, I can't even though I'm trying
Family for life
That's what you are
My long lost best friend
You're always welcome home
My birthday came and went, I'll be honest I saw it coming
Yet for a moment it was silent, no sadness or pain
Just acceptance
Sadly that moment came and went
It stung even though I saw it coming from miles away
I still miss you and would accept you in an instant
You always call me loyal
Seems I am loyal to a fault when it comes to you
I'll always be here for you, no matter how much you move on
I'd catch you in every fall if you'd let me
You probably want to forget all about you, do you despise me?
I made a promise to you, I'd care for you for life
I will not break that promise, I can't even though I'm trying
Family for life
That's what you are
My long lost best friend
You're always welcome home
Half a day after writing this I'm here again, surprised that that one moment of peace is growing to be bigger. I think a part of me was glad to not receive anything; our friendship isnt being dangled above my head anymore, as if it was something that I could have back in the full extend of what it was. The other part of me was crushed because I was still holding on; not in the forgiving way but in the desperate and dependant way. I think I can now start recovering; I will still always miss and love you. You are just that unforgettable and incredible. No matter how much time passes and no matter what happens you'll always be welcome in my life. You are still my family for life. If you ever need something I'll be there for you.
