I am leftovers disappointing takeout you spent too much money on (you're supposed to be saving) sitting in the back of the fridge guilt keeping me there long past expiration though I'm inedible
I like to hope that my stomach aches and sluggish breath, heavy head are symptoms of childhood dramatics turned teenage angst when I'm evicted from my teens I'll probably call it a quarter life crisis even so, I've accepted its permanence
I wish on dandelion fluff variations of the same thing that one morning I'll wake from a night of giggles with people I love swallow down papaya tablets and the sickening feeling will actually dissolve
My happy is like hot glue dripped on fingers - accidental quick to stick when it cools it molts takes my fingerprints with it leaving my finger tips raw
I can't keep secrets, especially my own they like to creep up my throat slither out unannounced while I'm on car rides; restless they can't hold still for the four hours that get me everywhere I know now
I used to be incapable of shutting my eyes when the cosmetologist rinsed my hair it felt like a trick like shed crack my neck on the sink as soon as I relaxed instead I'd count ceiling tiles to avoid eye contact
Now I feel proud when I fall asleep on the train or with someone else in my bed I count how long I can squeeze my eyes shut in the cereal aisle forcing trust to prove something to myself