Jul 2013
adult self:* *"Yeah, I just wish I would have done something to stop everything from happening."
child self: "What do you mean?"
adult self: "Well, you know. The stuff with Father. I wish I would have done something to keep that from happening."
child self: "Like what?"
adult self: "I don’t know." I thought for a minute. "I just took it. I wish I would have stopped it all. I could have said something, told someone earlier. You know."
child self: "But how?"
adult self: "I don’t know! I’m not angry at you," I said quickly. *"I wish I’d have been stronger. I wish someone would have walked in on Father and me. Someone. I wish someone would have been there. Some kind of adult, someone who would have stopped it, or at least said to me, "It’s all right. It’s not your fault."
child self: "What do you mean?"
adult self: "Well, you know. The stuff with Father. I wish I would have done something to keep that from happening."
child self: "Like what?"
adult self: "I don’t know." I thought for a minute. "I just took it. I wish I would have stopped it all. I could have said something, told someone earlier. You know."
child self: "But how?"
adult self: "I don’t know! I’m not angry at you," I said quickly. *"I wish I’d have been stronger. I wish someone would have walked in on Father and me. Someone. I wish someone would have been there. Some kind of adult, someone who would have stopped it, or at least said to me, "It’s all right. It’s not your fault."
