have you ever been so hurt your just to afraid to cry?  like the tears would never ever stop like a rapid river after a horrible storm?  here is where i am personally at in my life at 46 years old.   if you ever cried in silence with your eyes wide open ...man/woman/child i feel ya its a horrible thing to choke down emotional pain.  choking on the tears no words just a couple of gasps of air let in while the tears beg to leak from your face?  therapy? nah not for me!  Acting out to help others that have a chance to let go ABSOOFUCKINGLUTELY!!  my cry will come but it will not be in this day today!  that is my personal choice not yours.  i wish you happy healthy good tears a happy healthy outlet a successful banter in the woods and a huuuuge scream.  so now you ask yourself why doesn't she just wish that for herself???????  i can label off 46 years of ***** deeds and injustices or i can simply say i do not want to not just yet its not my time.