I get the feeling why everyone wanted this. It is an addictive drug that one would miss. A definite excuse to be someone you're not. A mere excuse to really be out of your comfort. It is really something that everyone really longs for. It has been and always will be.
I have not really thought on how I ended up with the feeling. A soothing, calming and uneasy ecstacy that's cripping in. I may be falling. It's addictive. It's comforting. It's something.
I may be falling and I'm trying to fall further into the pit.