Sometimes the chapter doesn’t end the way you predicted It’s on a cliff hanger but you can’t read ahead Because it’s not time yet You’re too tired You need rest But what the hell comes next And you’ll lose a little bit of sleep over it But isn’t that life? You make your bed, you lay in it But your dreams aren’t always pleasant. What the **** is up with soggy pizza, anyway? Walked out on a peer Expecting you to be there But all I saw was a girl, drunk With some lake water logged dough. She offered me some, but I passed her up And proceeded down the planks to find you But I couldn’t go any further because it ended At the dark, murky edge. ****, I see your hands when I look at mine And you are standing in front of me When I close my eyes. Coming face with reality, But what is it anyway? Woke up and felt like these past months were all a dream 2019 All the agony Of losing you Was all I felt to be true. Emotional distress, Was what I saw in my lack of rest. A million tear meltdown I just cried These past two years held inside
And there’s that whisper, be here now Even in the darkness These shadows of pain And psychological disdain
It’ll be okay, it’ll be okay It’s not the end Just a new beginning That hurts as bad And it’s the past that makes me sad Much more than the present Maybe it’s about time I let it go, I let you go And even when I can’t seem to What else is there to do? Just feel it out, Ride it out, These Ocean waves Tumbling me across The Stormy seas It’s much more than the gentle breeze I felt when I caressed your face While getting lost in your gaze. I thought I was ready for this But all I wanted was the bliss Holding you close, heart on the mend Now alone with my own dread Waking up With nightmares of you dying, And me without you, crying.