Jan 2021
To my abuser and ex love,
Upon my tears I release
my strife. The memories
of you taste like ash it
rotted and decayed long ago.
You promised me forever but brought me shattered dreams
instead.
I lost your heart to your
selfish muse, your in love
with greed and dishonesty.
I was beaten down until
I felt like I was nothing
but an annoyance an unbearable itch that keeps burning.
But it wasn’t me, it was
your sins that rules your
kingdom of hateful lies
you tell yourself.
You have no one to blame
but yourself, yet still,
still you cry wolf while wearing sheeps skin.
No one believes after
the first lie, each time
you speak to manipulate
you push a wage in between,
your a coward because you
don’t have the guts to be
honest and change your behavior.
I have worked hard to be
strong enough to not blame
myself for the abuse you
threw at me.
I am a good person,
I am a kind smart
and unique human being.
I had to learn how to accept myself while you were lying
telling me I am nuts and I
should take medication that
hurt me and I don’t need anymore.
If you are truly a good person
you would have changed your behavior and show it.
©️ 2021 By Amanda Shelton
Upon my tears I release
my strife. The memories
of you taste like ash it
rotted and decayed long ago.
You promised me forever but brought me shattered dreams
instead.
I lost your heart to your
selfish muse, your in love
with greed and dishonesty.
I was beaten down until
I felt like I was nothing
but an annoyance an unbearable itch that keeps burning.
But it wasn’t me, it was
your sins that rules your
kingdom of hateful lies
you tell yourself.
You have no one to blame
but yourself, yet still,
still you cry wolf while wearing sheeps skin.
No one believes after
the first lie, each time
you speak to manipulate
you push a wage in between,
your a coward because you
don’t have the guts to be
honest and change your behavior.
I have worked hard to be
strong enough to not blame
myself for the abuse you
threw at me.
I am a good person,
I am a kind smart
and unique human being.
I had to learn how to accept myself while you were lying
telling me I am nuts and I
should take medication that
hurt me and I don’t need anymore.
If you are truly a good person
you would have changed your behavior and show it.
©️ 2021 By Amanda Shelton
If someone makes you feel horrible about yourself, you should get away from them. Its abusive to bully and hurt. It doesn't matter why someone abuses, it's not right. No one should allow it. Everyone deserves to be loved and feel secure. Forgiveness starts with forgiving yourself. It's healthy to be honest and kind. Reflect good and good will reflect on your life too. You should talk about your issues instead of reflecting hate and ugliness. It's no one's responsibility to make you happy. Happiness is personal.
