i wish i truly loved you

i wish that i wasn't broken
wasn't desperate
for an anything
as everything

i wish i didn't have
a bleeding heart
that wanted so badly
something to patch
all the wounds

i wish i knew
what was real
so that i wouldn't be so rash
at poking everything
remotely anything

i wish it was you
or her
or him
or a glass of water
or a photograph

or a music piece
or a sunset

(i wish i didn't think that either)

i wish
that enough
was real
for me

i wish
that real
was real
for me

and i wish
i truly loved you
truly