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Jesse Haydn
Poems
Jan 2021
11/29/17 or 11/30/17 & Or Schizophrenic Rant
I don’t feel bipolar or schizophrenic-like
in any way today. Look alive, Jess.
This may not be good.
Or maybe I do. Teju Cole says
“We are our habits in sum.”
I think we are our occupations
and preoccupations and I feel
dizzy, numb, now that I am 30 years
old, sitting on a park bench and stuck
just inhaling the last of a smoke
I lit way back when I was 20, waiting,
almost 21, before I broke my brain
and the earth was one sorrow lighter.
Good morning.
How do you do?
Fine.
What do you do?
I clean my house, play pretend and mostly
try to keep conversations inside of
my head or else I hide inside a corner of a coffee house
and write them down until-
What time is it? 52 minutes
of 7:10 and I used to have
a car and a longer leash
and I still got arrested
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without one. I think
I have done all the things
and looked inside of or fallen down all
the holes like Alice
EAT ME.
DRINK ME.
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I can’t remember anything but I can
remember, that for some reason
I sprayed my coat with
vinegar- a very random
conversation piece indeed. I even fall
into other people’s tiny
talking points across
the room. Shut the **** up,
please. I am trying desperately
to keep it quiet in here.
I don’t care about your group
texts or, ( or by whose standards?)-
your own public
shame. I used to have a
phone too and I don’t miss it-
yes.
Like a gloved hand
with no fingers and too
many holes
trying to make-up my mind.
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I mean, I empathize
with Emily but there is
a kind of shelter outside
that exists nowhere else,
a break from the Nazis
and life coaches and paranoias
and music you think you
have in my head. Jumbled, jumbled
more wrecked I am without
my Chi-Yin. I miss him terribly
4 minutes of 7:10. I hope he is
sleeping fine now, without me; he
too, finding his final form
in dreams and I- not
wanting to be on the cusp
of escaping, trying to piece together
what exactly is a puzzle
and what isn’t: still
deciduous, unformed
and undecided.
-Jesse Haydn
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Jesse Haydn
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