i despise being lied to,
but i am also afraid i do so.

when i don't say i love you back,
it just means i don't wish to be the nemesis of your soul.

alas, deep with in my heart,
there is a blemish i can not control.

too keep you joyful and smiling,
i start feigning with decontrol.

my biggest mistake is saying i loved you,
this i hope you know.