I carry my sins in my arms
Like dead roses to the grave of a loved one long gone
I don't want to die making amends for past sins
Committed to repentance by someone unrecognizable
A scared little girl clinging to the only things keeping her from falling
Falling apart
Falling in love with a lie told by someone she was meant to trust
He told her she was perfect
And she believed him
She absorbed that lie into her identity
And used it to project insecurities onto others
Drowning under the weight of a burden too heavy to carry
She searched for faults in friends
Coping with continuous failing
By destroying every good thing she ever had
Jeering at those who fell short
And preying on the weakness in others
The same weakness in herself
I guess it's easier to see yourself in a mirror
But she had no idea that she was staring at her reflection
That she was screaming these insults at the girl who was trying to carry the weight of the world on her shoulders by pushing away anyone willing to help her
I think now all I can do is tell her
I'm sorry
and
I forgive you
Because she deserves it
And maybe so do I