i guess
it was quite foolish,
to think
i could have
warmed your heart
as you did for me.
and maybe to think
that you noticed me
every time i smiled at you,
was stupid, as well.

because a part of me,
knew that you would
eventually leave me here
with mixed emotions
of emptiness and obscurity.
and here i am,
listening to love songs,
about how you could possibly
leave me
with such brokenness
in my heart
and tears
in my eyes.

but the more i think of you
and how selfish
i thought you were,
the more i look at myself thinking,
"why?"
why didn't you
leave me any
sooner?