jessica Philpott

jessica Philpott Aug 2014

sick

I'm sick with your love
One look and I'm dripping with anticipation
The touch oh and you know all the places to touch me
Your beautiful brown sugar skin
Soft as silk a wonderment of musk
As you pull tighter on my mess of hair
Pulling me closer into to you
Forcing me to respond to your every move
I hate it and love it so much
I'm torn between my desire and my brain
My love my obsession grows
With every touch
Every glance
Every crooked grin
Every mocking wink
I'm a fool for you
~I love you a thousand boats lavern~

jessica Philpott Oct 2013

Untitled

I tried to build a fire but it was wet so it wouldn't burn
I tried to drive away but the car wouldn't go all four tires blown
I tried to walk but my foot wasn't there
I tried to yell I hadn't a sound
I tried to build a fire but it was wet and wouldn't burn
I tried to build a fire but it was wet and wouldn't burn
I tried to leave but I was still there
I tried to walk but my foot wasn't there
I tried to yell I hadn't a sound
I tried to build a fire but it was wet and wouldn't burn

jessica Philpott Oct 2013

I'm not in love with you

I can still smell you on my pillow its sweet and soft but it makes me so sad your soft caresses lingering on my face I remember your words I LOVE YOU and for a moment I let you in it feels so good to be wrapped in your strong long arms I forgot how much I feel for you and like a **** it spills from me I can't control it its wonderful and sad and blissful all at once I'm on cloud nine that we two lovers finally got it right!! Finally. And the morning comes you have work I wait all day to here from you and like before nothing then I call to hear you say it once more and just when I think its coming you say I never ment to let you think I wanted you!!! I'm hurt broken and in tears all you say is I never wanted to be with you I just wanted to see you I hang up in fear of being so exposed once again I sit back and think how many times will I fall for the I LOVE YOU!! Then I think silently my love my heart my blood its not wrong to believe in love then I sleep so softly in my dreams all is well I'm not sad I'm not hurt I'm not in love with you.

jessica Philpott Aug 2013

the O

Hot sticky breath
Your musk is so sweet
Makes me quiver
I hang on your lips so supple
So smooth so soft
U press into me hard and fast
Making me quiver
I scream from joy and surprise
Every ****** sends me deeper
I can't catch my breath
Then I feel it the deep trembling
Into me deeper you go
My body takes over grasping you
Tightened around your hard self
Then it shoots into me

jessica Philpott Jun 2013

happiness

I feel twisted and broken
Everyone says dont be sad
Your happiness is your choice
Turn that frown upside-down
I want to scream and crawl out of my skin
Think of the positive
Only you have the power to make you happy
I feel broken and twisted like a crumpled piece of paper
Once soft and smooth not anymore
I wanna hide for days at a time and never see the sun
I feel twisted and broken
I don't know how to change it

jessica Philpott Apr 2013

i wanted to call

I wanted to call I wanted to hear your voice
I wanted us to talk for hours like it used to be I wanted to call
I want to lay in your arms for hours like it used to be
I want the sweet part I used to own now I can't ever seem to find
Because the you I love my love is no longer the loss I feel is so deep so dark so long ask hot so cold a trillion highs could not give me my fix I have tried

jessica Philpott Apr 2013

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That first taste so bitter and cold
By the third I'm that sweet altered state
I'm thirsty for acceptance
I'm hungry for love
This power feels incredible
My love of that altered state
Grows deeper every time
That feeling that everything is pillowed soft
My issues melt away what's left is the best part of me funny, ****, blunt, little me
Truth I need that altered state to help me feel normal
The hole world has no idea what its like in this head
The constant tug of war over every little decision
A battle within myself