I remember the Velcro wall
And the sumo suits
I remember all things involving you.
Now I’m sorry I had no clue
To be honest I would hate me too.
All theses memories coming back
When before they are what I lacked.
I don’t deserve anything but the worst
So for all that I am cursed.
I know that I am not the same
Yet for my past I am still to blame.
I was stuck in a shadow of people saying I didn’t change
But no one ever stays the same.
People learn and people grow
And living in a shadow is hard to show.
Now I know who I am
Believe it or not I’m working a program.
I battled addiction and still do
And I am kind, caring just brand new.
So know now that things are back
Know I am sorry for all I lacked
Now maybe I can stop thinking of you
And stop the dreams of you.
So I am sorry I should have been better
You deserved better

*missing you