Hey there, would you please listen to me?
Why is it that my moral compass not pointing anywhere

when I was 7, I asked mom why is it that the rules we follow justifies the death of another human
she said they did something bad, I agreed
when I was 12, I asked her why is it that ****** was the only option
she said because that's what the rules specified, I agreed
when I was 15, I asked her if what they did was really bad enough
she looked at me with bewilderment and said, 'of course, can't you see it's against our rules?'

I asked her, 'mom what defines bad?'
'oh my dear you are too young to understand'
'but I am 18 now'
'must you be re-educated?'
I thought you loved me
this is love, this is for you