Dec 2020
The Red Carpet was adorned with Stars dressed to the Heavens
Bejeweled with Dior the smell was effervescent
We took to stare at our wishes come to life
Reenacting our worlds pains and struggles
If perfection were to be a thing this was where it was happening
Oh how I always personally wished
A passion to pursue in the big bowl of fish
Little Orphan Annie now tatted with the sun
Mediocre just will not do
Then family and life began as they often choose to
Raised in the Church
many a village of People
Never losing hope but whoa along the way
My dignity sanity and dreams all the same
God Blessed and Thankfully my mercy my babies
Now on two failed marriages and a train wreck resume
My Children also wonder what happened to me
Ill save the story as you may already know
I have lived a great life always doing as told
Deep deep inside secrets I will hold
\Back to the carpet and the first Dell I received
Working at a job where it turned real queer /
I was a technician yeah Cable Girl is a thing
I rocked of course wearing my 1st ring
The purchase of the Dell and the Highway to the World
Holy ***%% did my head take a nose diving swirl
^^^Inverted
Psych wards and pill or were they potions for pain
In the Dell mirror everyone knew my ****%$# name
I now became an addict again but not the same
Literally smoking in the mirror of heaven hell life and pain
I quoted Jim Carrey and that **** Truman Show
Was it a warning now the f^ck if I know!!
End of marriage two now on its way
Still my mercy and grace tatted on my right forearm
Jason Maraz so it never goes away
I wont give up
Its not something I do
Just a **** ton of unanswered and *** do I dos
NOW here is the kicker hold on to your ticker!!
What if I was a star to some reality type life
Never knowing I was doing anything but living right?
Would there be a hero ..... is where I get stuck
I am quite a bada$$ no need I am my own luck?
So as you all know I do not watch much TV
As my kids will tell you fast asleep I will be
I love Nicole Kidman and of course Aquaman
So off to the living room and popcorn in hand
That day it got weirder you see
Oddly that reflection was looking into me
Yeah I know shell relax....take another pill
But **** got crazier even and still!!!!
It is like my brain did a huge back flip in my head
I have no idea just *** have I been dead?
Countless conversations over 20 plus years..........
Things started falling in place
Like *** am I doing here
Too many levels to this Crazy life
Which reality is the less strife
On a pink scrunchie day
This Crazy Train had enough
I am a panda....YOUR my WHO?????
Holy FU%%%%% ENOUGH
Princess of Darkness now lets add that too
Watched by the world
Here take them ******* and your sparkly shoes
So off to Thelma and bottle of Fireball
That is it FCU%$ this I cant take no more!!
We talked about the day we smoke some grass
I told her I saw some **** today on puff puff pass
Imma skip today that was my forward pass
\
/
I woke in a tub of ***** and shame
to my oldest to collect me oh how that pain
All the years I tried to save them from this
I saw my oldest disgusted
and i knew
He was ******!!
As I type this I cry for me and my children
What ifs still fly and now no identity
Maybe God still has a plan for me?????
Christmas upon us and I wont lie
I see a pink scrunchie in my head is that too a lie??
My DNA and odd bank accounts.............
You can keep it all count me out......
My Christmas wish in case and before I die
Is to know if that man does talk to Fish
He has been through my whole life ..... isnt that a hitch???
I am back at St. Mikes sooooooo many years ago
We all were the BEST as all of you KNOW
In the All American City
I now prove to you Jesus is real and witty!!
adorned with my Hat given to me by my 2nd son
and the name Mierk and I love me a nerd??
That is hotter than any red carpet!!
At the end of the day yall do what do
Gods got my back and now my front too!!
I stand firm beaten mangled forked most times at the tounge
Shaking and Roaring his will will never be undone
Thankful even more still 3 days till his birth
Merry Christmas You filthy Animals ;)
for
What that's all worth
I love you all <3
Bejeweled with Dior the smell was effervescent
We took to stare at our wishes come to life
Reenacting our worlds pains and struggles
If perfection were to be a thing this was where it was happening
Oh how I always personally wished
A passion to pursue in the big bowl of fish
Little Orphan Annie now tatted with the sun
Mediocre just will not do
Then family and life began as they often choose to
Raised in the Church
many a village of People
Never losing hope but whoa along the way
My dignity sanity and dreams all the same
God Blessed and Thankfully my mercy my babies
Now on two failed marriages and a train wreck resume
My Children also wonder what happened to me
Ill save the story as you may already know
I have lived a great life always doing as told
Deep deep inside secrets I will hold
\Back to the carpet and the first Dell I received
Working at a job where it turned real queer /
I was a technician yeah Cable Girl is a thing
I rocked of course wearing my 1st ring
The purchase of the Dell and the Highway to the World
Holy ***%% did my head take a nose diving swirl
^^^Inverted
Psych wards and pill or were they potions for pain
In the Dell mirror everyone knew my ****%$# name
I now became an addict again but not the same
Literally smoking in the mirror of heaven hell life and pain
I quoted Jim Carrey and that **** Truman Show
Was it a warning now the f^ck if I know!!
End of marriage two now on its way
Still my mercy and grace tatted on my right forearm
Jason Maraz so it never goes away
I wont give up
Its not something I do
Just a **** ton of unanswered and *** do I dos
NOW here is the kicker hold on to your ticker!!
What if I was a star to some reality type life
Never knowing I was doing anything but living right?
Would there be a hero ..... is where I get stuck
I am quite a bada$$ no need I am my own luck?
So as you all know I do not watch much TV
As my kids will tell you fast asleep I will be
I love Nicole Kidman and of course Aquaman
So off to the living room and popcorn in hand
That day it got weirder you see
Oddly that reflection was looking into me
Yeah I know shell relax....take another pill
But **** got crazier even and still!!!!
It is like my brain did a huge back flip in my head
I have no idea just *** have I been dead?
Countless conversations over 20 plus years..........
Things started falling in place
Like *** am I doing here
Too many levels to this Crazy life
Which reality is the less strife
On a pink scrunchie day
This Crazy Train had enough
I am a panda....YOUR my WHO?????
Holy FU%%%%% ENOUGH
Princess of Darkness now lets add that too
Watched by the world
Here take them ******* and your sparkly shoes
So off to Thelma and bottle of Fireball
That is it FCU%$ this I cant take no more!!
We talked about the day we smoke some grass
I told her I saw some **** today on puff puff pass
Imma skip today that was my forward pass
\
/
I woke in a tub of ***** and shame
to my oldest to collect me oh how that pain
All the years I tried to save them from this
I saw my oldest disgusted
and i knew
He was ******!!
As I type this I cry for me and my children
What ifs still fly and now no identity
Maybe God still has a plan for me?????
Christmas upon us and I wont lie
I see a pink scrunchie in my head is that too a lie??
My DNA and odd bank accounts.............
You can keep it all count me out......
My Christmas wish in case and before I die
Is to know if that man does talk to Fish
He has been through my whole life ..... isnt that a hitch???
I am back at St. Mikes sooooooo many years ago
We all were the BEST as all of you KNOW
In the All American City
I now prove to you Jesus is real and witty!!
adorned with my Hat given to me by my 2nd son
and the name Mierk and I love me a nerd??
That is hotter than any red carpet!!
At the end of the day yall do what do
Gods got my back and now my front too!!
I stand firm beaten mangled forked most times at the tounge
Shaking and Roaring his will will never be undone
Thankful even more still 3 days till his birth
Merry Christmas You filthy Animals ;)
for
What that's all worth
I love you all <3
