One day I will wake up in the early morning My fingernails aglow with sun And I will not want to scratch the pain out of my skin.
One day I will not be subject to Pleasantries and masquerades, Hellos and goodbyes and see-you-agains, But be greeted with a small smile And a nod of understanding.
One day Someone will say they will stay by my side Even when the sea inside me Overflows, and drowns him too; He says the tide will bring us back ashore.
One day My fingers will not shiver In summer, because the cold is never gone. The blood in my veins will not carry the echo Of hate and self deprecation.
One day I will wake up without internally screaming, And hey, who knows, maybe I’ll smile. I will put on my yellow boots Not as a reminder of the sadness I hide, But a proportionate guarantee of the happiness I feel.
But today, you see, Today I cannot find the strength to leave my bed; The blinds will be closed the whole day and The postman will know not to knock on my door.
Today The sea inside me rages And ****** the backside of my eyes, Drenching my pillow with saltwater. And in a blurry pointillism of blues I will drown Before I reach ashore.