If you could see me now

Would it make a difference?

I'm not sure.

And

Honestly,

There's no way to know

Because

Even if you did,

Everything has changed.

Sure.. you'd see me,

But...

It would be in a different light.

There were so many things that I wanted you to know.

I strove hard to prove it and show it because

Actions speak louder than words.

But, the opportunity never presented itself.

Then, one day, I broke down.

I said.

I said all of it.  

Well..

Almost all of it.

I stopped just shy.

(And, I still wonder what the outcome would've been if I didn't. That, however, is another question for another day and another time )

But, now...

Here I am...

Living out that 'dream'.

If only you knew!

That's the line that keeps running through my mind.

The musing that haunts the quiet moments.

Would it make a difference?

Would you begin to call me your own?

Would you say,

'I can't believe that I can call you mine', lov

If you could see me now?