If only my creativity flowed like the blood in my veins.
If only my life was as picture-perfect as my story characters.
If only my mind wasn't fractured with depression and anxiety.
If only I wasn't so paranoid.
If only my friends really cared about me.
If only I wasn't mentally dead.
If only my only escape was a good one.
If only my words made sense.
If only, if only...