It's been so long since I got to hear your voice,
Not a day goes by where I don't regret my choice.
The things we used to do for fun and joy,
But I let my ego loose to destroy.
I regret the decisions I've done or made,
My heart hangs heavy wishing you'd of stayed.
You would always be there by my side,
No matter how difficult the stride.
Helping me, lifting me to greater heights,
Guiding me, urging me to keep up the fights.
I threw it all away; my ego got in the way,
Nothing I can say will take me back to that day.
I can't change the past, but I have learned,
I don't know if I can repair the bridge I've burned.
There's an emptiness that I can't deny,
To myself I can no longer lie.
You were there for me when I needed you most,
And I for you, but now I'm only a ghost.
A memory of what I used to be in the past,
To repair what once was, a task too vast.
We may never be the same, it's too much to ask,
Allow me to hate myself and drink from this flask.
I for lack of a better word, failed you,
Doubt fills my mind; this is true.
It's been so long, and not a day goes by,
When you don't come to mind, as I ask myself why?
The cracks remain in what once was,
Wishing I could go back in time and press pause.
On that one moment, when we were happy and alive,
Cause now I'm left struggling to breathe and survive...