i don't need you anymore --but some days i need someone who will listen, somebody who will hold my hand and promise me that it's okay, that someday all my scars will go away, and that even if they don't i can still be beautiful; i don't need you anymore, but some days i need somebody who could make me feel something only you could, and some days all i need somebody who will keep me safe--
(and some days i wish it was okay for me to still want you here)
but i pushed you away a long time ago, and it wouldn't be fair to pull you back. sorry, this isn't really poetry, it's just me angsting and being regretful.