Walking to the left
Running to the right
Standing but still confused
Sitting down and frustrated
Counting sheep is annoying
Swishing
Slurping
But it wont go down
8 hours every night?
Am I really resting
Or just wasting more energy
Navigating through one dream after another
Asking questions
Looking for solutions
Trying to fix what is ugly
What needs to go
Trying to go back to an older self
one that was younger
In sprit
Smiled just because
Didn’t give a **** about the others
Stayed away from trouble
Didn’t let anyone get too close
Didn’t have to turn to cold dark corners
Just to save herself
From breaking
Its just tiring
All of it
Weather my eyes are open
Or closed