I dreamt of being back in New York
Getting out of the elementary school
But now as an adult from being part of a course
The playground I used to play in as a child
Now flooded from a passing storm
My car interior soaking due to a black out drive where I left the windows and doors open after I left the vehicle
My mother appearing, to ***** me with small blood capsules to “bleed” the toxins out of me
My grandmother, whose British royalty, appearing in the back seat of my car after parking her car next to mine
Walking up and down the block wanting to see my father for some reason
The first man I truly hated
And I wanted to go see him
To talk to him
Because I don’t know what to do
And I don’t want to talk to anyone but her
But she doesn’t want to talk
But that’s ok, I’m supposed to be there for her
All of a sudden I’m back in Japan serving my time in the military
Texting her asking about her day
And just
I get a picture of her bent over in a cage with someone behind her
No expression on her face
Just emptiness
And so I ask her
And she says nothing
And I’m scared
I’m so scared