just friends.
how does that work when our relationship started so casually?
do we just pretend we didn’t stay up all night together, high out of our minds, telling random childhood stories?
do we just forget about the flirtatious comments that we always made to each other?
do we just ignore the tension that can be felt just from the brush of our hands?
do we bury the chemistry that erupts when we’re with each other?
how do i just erase the time we spent together?
how do i ignore the love i have for you?
how do i just not care?
how do i stop caring?
how do i stop thinking about you?
how do you do this?
how do you build someone up for so long, yet tear them down at the same time?
how do you fill someone with so much hope knowing you had different, dreadful plans for the outcome?
how do you know exactly what to say to win me back, to make me think you changed?
how do you invite someone in only to shut them out right as they reached the door?
i don’t know how you do it.

what i do know is we can’t be just friends,

because we just can’t be friends at all.