I had big dreams

Dreams of love and of conquest
Of war and of danger
Of overcoming obstacles
Of things beyond the stranger

Of fairytales and dragons
And monsters alike
Of exploring and believing
Of not going down without a fight

Of lords and of ladies
Of masters and counts
Of quicksand and traps
Of don’t make a sound

Of resistance and bravery
Of proving your worth
Of not giving up
Of death and rebirth

Yet here I am.
In my safe little house
With my safe little friends
With my safe little spouse

With my safe little summer
My safe little lawn
With my so little purpose
I’d rather be gone

I dreamt of excitement
Of happy, of free,
They told me it would be here
But this is not for me

I know I must keep it
For this is a blessing
A stable surrounding
No hurry, no stressing

But they told me I'd learn
I'd appreciate it surely
So why am i still thinking
About dying prematurely

If time is seconds and minutes
If time is birth, born, then black
If time is one after the last
Then stick a knife in my back