loving you is the most exhausting thing i've ever come to know not because the feelings aren't mutual, simply because you are unaware the constant curiosity of what you think do you think i'm broken? do you think i'm naive? my lack of confidence and your stock of mystery is what keeps me going maybe this is a game i don't want to end, maybe i want to admire you from a distance, like the way some look at the sea my tendencies are starting to go out of control i've counted the freckles on your nose and i know that you tap your fingers when you are at a loss for words i come up with these scenarios these drawn out stories the ones where nothing else matters except for us notice me touch me love me