A homophobic slur from my neighbor, A "fine young man" from my parents, A disappointment from myself, "Ashley" for a time, because I asked my friends, and "messed up" from those who overheard, "Smart and brave" from my therapist, and "a sin" from those sermons I watch sometimes. The thing that scares me most, is that my name means nothing to me. It's just another thing I'm called.