i miss our hugs every morning,
and our crazy conversations every afternoon.
but today i got to hug you
under the blue full moon.

i slammed into your arms,
heart hammered in my chest.
our hugs are special,
they are the very best.

you whispered "hi",
while i called out for help.
when you said "bye",
that's when the tears fell.

i won't receive another for a while,
and after you left, my mother turned vile.
i wanted to go with you,
to know that i was safe
cause i don't feel safe in this place.

it's a constant battle,
that i'm not winning.
a constant race,
and i'm thinking of quitting.