I would be hailed nothing less
than
king of all the
Hypocrites
If I failed to confess
And
acknowledge this.
That in my youth.....
Cocky,crass,and lacking cooth
A time when
My mouth went
UnBridled
Anything I want arrogant
Carte blanche
Entitled
Egotistical
had it all ......
Looking back
Hid in securities
Its with crystal clarity
I.c.y
this thing causing my fall
As I reach terminal velocity...
The stench I smell around me
...........
Infidelity
And it matters
Not
who it was committed  with
Or how long ago.
........Still ......
I know its
Simply
A sickning
Debt Im owed
And its return burns ten
Fold
The guilt and shame
Accrued,
With compound interest
Gained...
Came so subtly
..... Karma.....
With abundant clever schemes
setting a horde of locust
Each branded
With my name
To destroy any love and its ever so clear
The poisonous
Prize
is mine to claim
At the risk of sounding vain
Over the years
Ive caused a tsunami of tears ...
Each one full of pain
Ive collected all of them
Like a sadistic
Ritual
I
Feel each one in full
The hurt is
Disabling
I know it
With excruciating
Intimacy.
These
insatiable deeds
That brought
Exstacy
Went rank and jaded me
Love is afraid of me
All my suffering
Is
nothing compared
To the hurt that has been caused
By me
..........
.......
....
...
Yours introspectfully
...
Me
..
.