it hurts a lot, loving someone and being stabbed by them. i’ve felt it before, it crushes you like nothing else. it leaves you with a large capacity to love others, but a very small capacity to receive it. i promise you those bad days are worth it. they need you, they want you, they just don’t know how to express it. because the last time they did someone shoved it right back down their throat and made them choke on it. they want to get better, they want to love you with the same intensity that you love them. they wish to feel all the love you have for them, but they are just so afraid of being hurt again. its them to suppress such a love, more than you know. but when they come to terms with it and begin to trust you with a piece of their heart, you will feel more loved than you ever have. its funny how life works like that. the people who were hurt the most know how to love the most. i think its because they know what its like to not feel loved at all and they never want another human being to feel that sense of despair.