you became a home when i couldnt find one.
you became a friend when i had none.
you became a parent when mine left.
you became a mentor when i had no one to guide me.

god im so in love with you.

i feel it in my chest.
in my stomach.
in my heart.
in my feet.
in my mind.
in my hands.

i feel it all over.

can you breathe when you're around me
because i cant breathe when im with you.

my lungs ignite into flames.
and my heart beats with a ferocity like never before.
my stomach explodes with butterflies.

i feel like im dying,
but ive never been more alive.

i tell them we are just friends,
but they look at me like im crazy.

they ask,
"how can he look at you like that and be just a friend?"

what am i supposed to tell them?
that its not the right time?
that it was too much all at once?

they keep asking,
"what are you? you might not be dating,
but its definitely more than friends?"

so i ask you,
what are we?
what are we doing?

this feeling is more than a friendly caring.

i love you more than i have loved anyone in this world.
i so badly want to kiss you.

i want so badly for you to understand how i feel when im with you.

but this something meant for the books.
saying, "they were friends who looked at eachother as more"

stop it.
stop hurting me.
stop looking at me.
stop touching me.
stop.
stop.
stop it.

you made me love you,
and you left.

you made me trust you,
and you left.

you made me promise things i never thought i would,
and you left.

you made me,
and you left.

you promised that you wouldn't break my heart,
but i suppose there are some promises that you were unable to keep.

i will never stop loving you: you promised, but you stopped it.
i would never break your heart: you promised, but you broke it anyways.
i want you more than anyone else: you promised, but that girl seemed to think the same thing.