Eat faster
Eat faster
Eat faster

I KNOW

I can't help it that I chew 40 times
before swallowing
I can't help it that I have a bad appetite
I can't help it that there is this uncomfortable feeling when I eat

I CAN'T

I hate it when you scold my sister
horrible stuff
about her weight
and when she gets sad
everyone tries to push the blame and deny
everything

and
WHY did you call me evil
why do you always call me evil?

I was trying to make her feel better
about herself
THAT HURT

I dont reject food to stay skinny
I think it runs in the family
everyday my grandma pushes food to me
while she herself eats so little

and everyday she gets skinnier and skinnier
lighter and lighter
and here I am just watching

you too eat so little every time
always not buying food for yourself
and eating instant noodles

STOP
just
STOP
everything

I can't help
*anything